The Meakings Group

•May 19, 2013 • Leave a Comment

 

When I turned sixteen I got a job working at a small, local lure company after school. It was owned and run by a retired sergeant from the Army. I was getting paid under the table, cash. It was enough to fill up my tank every week and buy a chocolate éclair and a coke. That is what I bought every Friday when I got paid and I was out of money that quick, but I had a full tank of gas. As a kid with a new license and a car, that was heaven.
My grandfather had gotten me the job and when I went in to work, there was one other employee working there and it turned out I knew him. He started making lots of small talk while training me how to pour hot lead into the molds to make the heads of spinner baits.
After about 15 minutes or so of being on the job our boss walks out, wads a five dollar bill into a ball in his fist and throws it in my face. “Get out of here, you talk too much” were his words and then he walked back into his office.
I was stunned. I walked out disgraced and confused. It bothered me all night and I did not tell my family I had gotten fired. The next day my confusion turned to anger. After school, I drove back to the lure company, walked in and said, “give me my job back. I didn’t do anything wrong”. He looked at me for a few seconds with a stunned look and said, “You got a lot of balls coming back in here and saying that to my face. Get back to work”. From then on we were totally cool. I worked for him for over a year. I was his only employee during most of that time as he wasn’t making much money at it. Towards the end he was just giving me busy work. He didn’t need me, but he liked me and wanted to give me a job. I was paving his driveway, running errands, doing his yard work. He paid me the same each week whether I did 5 hours of work or 25. He was good to me.
I had acquired a girlfriend during my time working there. I lived in a military town, she was older than me and was out of school and in her first year of the Army. It was a terrible relationship, but I was getting laid as much as I wanted and that was much better than a full tank of gas.
It was not long until I got her pregnant. I asked her to marry me and I went home to tell my family. My mom, rightfully so, freaked out and told me I couldn’t live at home anymore. She told me I would need a higher paying job. She got me an interview with a flooring factory. Her friend Lucinda was a supervisor there. I filled out an application and did a short interview and got the job. I would work from four in afternoon to one in the morning, six days a week. I think I made four or five dollars an hour.
My fiancé and I could not yet afford a place on our own so we moved in with a couple she knew from the Army. They were married and had just had a baby girl and had a three bedroom apartment. It was a bad scene there. That couple did not get along and my fiancé and I did not get along. There was constant drama and tension.
My fiancé decided we needed a place of our own, hoping that would help alleviate some of our troubles I agreed and we found a run down apartment that was furnished and all bills paid for either $250 or $350 a month. I cannot recall which.
The factory was a strange place to work. Our boss was an Australian fellow who was spending way above his means and was on his fourth or fifth wife. He was basically a con man that came to a small town to escape past shady business dealings. He drove cars he could not afford, bought houses he could not afford, wore expensive gold watches and jewelry.
One day he walked out to me on the factory floor and said, “You put on your application that you do graphic design”, I said, “Yes, I take a vocational class about it at school”. He asked me to come up with a logo for the company and one for the specific flooring we were doing, so I did several. This is one of the logos I came up with. He liked it. We got shirts, and tons of stuff with my logo on it. I also painted it by myself 30 feet by 40 feet on the side of the factory.
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I worked for the company for two years. During that time, I got married, had a daughter, bought a four bedroom house, graduated high school and got divorced.
After my divorced I decided I was moving to Dallas. The factory was starting to feel the strain of our boss’s extravagant lifestyle. We had gone from about forty employees, down to six. The way they let people go was so shitty; they would call us all on the floor in the factory and say, “If we don’t call your name, leave” and would start running down names. I was in that group of 6 that were left. Towards the end of my employment there some of our checks were bouncing. We had a running joke that we would all race to our banks to get our checks in because we knew some would bounce.
I walked in to my boss’s office and gave a two weeks notice and said I was promised a two week vacation a year that I had never taken and that I would like it to start immediately. He liked me. He let me walk out with a check for two extra weeks of pay and it didn’t bounce. That was the end of my time in Lawton, Oklahoma.

Goldie Roxx

•May 1, 2013 • Leave a Comment

In 1985, I was in 9th grade. Me and my friend came up the the idea to start a glam metal band called Goldie Roxx. We’d all bleach our hair blonde and wear white and pink and have white and pink guitars. Though the band has yet to happen, I still have my flying V 28 years later.

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Raina Rose, Caldera

•April 22, 2013 • Leave a Comment

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A couple of years ago under this bridge I recorded Raina Rose playing two brand new songs. They are great songs and at the time I remember thinking, “Raina Rose is real damn good at what she does”. I included them on a double disc CD compilation of field recordings of many great artists. Those two songs are also on her brand new album, Caldera. The two songs are “Woodsmoke” and “Apostle”.

I first saw Raina Rose in maybe 2009 at the legendary Cactus Cafe in Austin, TX. She struck me as a great guitar player and songwriter. Every time I saw here from then on she was taking giant leaps as a songwriter.

She’s been a songwriter for a living for quite a few years. It’s hard to convey how difficult that is to do and how much sacrifice it takes.

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Her new album was recorded in Austin, TX at Church House Studio. In my opinion it’s her first great sounding album. Although I love all of her albums, because great songs are great songs. I believe it’s real hard to mess up great songs in the recording process. The new album is rich and tasteful and oozes a great vibe; A vibe very true to Raina as a person. An album that has a lot of heart and love to it, even when it’s delivering dark subject matter.

She has become one of my favorite songwriters. You should really consider buying her new album, Caldera. It’s an great collection of songs, done with a great band around her. Support great artists like Raina Rose in any way you can. It’s never been more important and vital to songwriters/bands these days to have fans that buy music and go to shows.

Here is the song “Woodsmoke” as it is on her new album
https://soundcloud.com/raina-rose/woodsmoke/s-ZLj9i

You can buy Caldera at http://www.rainarose.com

Cyst/infection/spider bite update

•April 21, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Update on that little spider bite or whatever the hell happened. Today is the third day we’ve stuffed a lot of medicated tape into my arm. I never thought I’d see hemostats pushed deep in to my arm. I’m not sure if I love that or water being spray under my skin more.

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Last night I looked down to notice my hand had swollen up like a balloon. I assumed it was from the tightness of the wrap, so I loosened it. It didn’t appear to be the case as it stayed overnight. It’s back down no though.

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The music of Kevin Gilbert – Died in 1996 at age 29

•April 20, 2013 • Leave a Comment

I was turned on to Kevin Gilbert in maybe 2001/2002. I’m not really a prog rock kind of guy in general, but Kevin was entering a great period of creativity and really coming into his own as a songwriter before dying at 29 from autoerotic asphyxiation.

He was part of the Tuesday night music club that made Sheryl Crow famous. Sheryl was dating Kevin and brought into the Tuesday Night Music Club. They wrote most of her album and she tried to take all the credit. There’s plenty about it online. It was a bad deal and lots of bad blood.

He did session work and was engineer and producer on some Madonna, Michael Jackson tracks and toured with Eddie Money. He was a multi-instrumentalist and a great producer.

He released one album under his name called “Thud”. With no budget to promote it, it went largely unheard. It’s brilliant. I tend to like more dark songs, ones that give real truth to them. This is the last song on that album that shakes me to the core every time I hear it.

Song for a dead friend
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GNO_AGQcxhg

Here’s a song that starts off the album that is a great tune
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGbvuSLtPJQ

Here’s a song from it that’s more complex and prog
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hy1GMYMRjCo

Here’s one that has one of my favorite lyric lines on the album: “Goodness gracious of apathy I sing. The baby boomers had it all and wasted everything. Now recess is almost over and they won’t get off the swing. Won’t get off the swing!”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=olczxCTr4k4

After his death, his friends finished his follow up record for him that he had been working on. It was a concept album about a young musician that sells out for fame. I wish he could have finished this all on his own, but his friends did a great job piecing it together from notes and recordings.

The album is called “The Shaming of the True” a play on words of “The Taming of the Shrew”

Here’s the first three songs in order. If you are growing impatient, please listen to ‘Suit Fugue” if nothing else. That song is amazing.

Parade
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r5dk0tMQ5wA

City of the Sun – It’s important to play this song and Suit Fugue” back to back, because otherwise his voicemail at the end of this song makes no sense.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jf5VveFeTeY

Suit Fugue – And perhaps the most genius track on the record. He got a lot of funny voicemails from A&R people from labels. He took some of their words and made this song from them
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5Zx-0om5N0

Another album of his was finished after his death called “Kaviar”. It was a project he had been working on and planned to take live, with a latex wearing band.

Death Orgy 9000
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PiAQhD0xHpw

And the song that follow Death Orgy is a funny song called “Picnic”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHCuPfb4QA0

Indian Burn – a song about how we mistreated Indians
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUZ74pkvbU4

His family runs his estate. He was a genius coming into his own and was taken far too soon. I long for what work would have come next. He’s worth diving in to. There’s some live stuff on youtube, but not a ton. There’s a live DVD out there as well.  Hopefully I’ve turned someone new on to Kevin Gilbert.

There’s plenty more to dive in to. Enjoy!
http://kevingilbert.com

Photo of the day – 15 – Coat Rack

•August 26, 2012 • Leave a Comment

When my dad died, there was an estate auction. He did not have a will or at least anything specific to his belongings, so basically his family had no rights to anything. I am not certain I am recalling correctly, but I think my step mom told us to come over and take a few small things before they could account for them. I went over and took some of his clothes, some small trinkets and this coat rack thingy.

I don’t know why I was drawn to it. I think I just remember him taking off his watch and jewelry every night, putting it in that little tray of this rack and then taking his coolest jacket that he often wore and placing it in the hanger of this thing. I remember thinking it was cool, so I took it.

Here it is twenty-eight years later. It is one of the last things I have of his. As far as I can account, I’ve lived in eighteen different places since acquiring this rack. I have carried it around for all these years and never have used it. I always just place it in my bedroom often without even thinking about it at all. There is just something subconsciously about it.

Today, while cleaning out my storage unit I decided to throw it away. While carrying it to the dumpster it got me real emotional and all of the sudden out of nowhere this was a big deal. I had to take a picture. I had to stop and look at it and think about my father, before ceremoniously throwing it into the dumpster. It fucked with me. I can’t tell you exactly why, but it really fucked with me. It is still fucking with me.

My best guess is that I really take death hard. My mom told me on many occasions that I had the ability to heal faster than others because I can write openly about it. I used to believe that was true. I have known for quite some time that, that is bullshit. There may be something to be said for writing about something to free you of it, but I think I write about something, and then I drag it around in song for years. When I sing a song, in my mind I am back at that exact moment of whatever event I am singing about. Often I tear up during songs that I have no real emotion tied to anymore, but when I sing I’m not in the now, I’m in the past. Therefore it still feels fresh. I have people ask me how I remember words to old songs that I rarely sing. It is easy. I am not singing lyrics, in my mind I have living that moment and all I am doing is telling you about it as it plays out in my mind.

As my mom was dying, she told me again she was not worried about me, that she was more worried about my sister. My sister tends to bottle things up, to where I tend to put it out in the open. I think my sister’s methods are healthier for her, than my methods are healthy for me. That’s not to say either method works for everyone. We all have our own ways to deal with pain. I just think my way is an unhealthy avenue for me.

I have still never really dealt with my moms death and to be honest I am in some sort of weird emotional holding pattern. I’ve written many songs about it, but those do not tend to help me heal.

All I know right now is that I have a strong urge to race back to that dumpster and pull that damn coat rack out of there.

That’s what I did

•August 25, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I just wrote a song, inspired I guess by the memories of the previous post. Anyway, just a quick draft of it, I’m sure it will go through changes.

That’s What I Did

The baby’s asleep in the passenger seat
And we’re combing the town for you
I’m mad as can be, while pacing these streets
You don’t want me right now to find you

Are these rings on our fingers just decorations?
They seem to be under the circumstances
All I know, is it’s three in the morning
And we’re out looking for you

Our baby will sleep as long as I keep
Moving around this town
I heard from a friend that it might be him
And he told me where he could be found

Your car was parked at Fox Valley Apartments
This town is just big enough to hide for a while
And I don’t know which door to kick down
So I shut off my lights and I wait

Our daughter awakes
And I pull her to my chest
She senses my anger and she starts crying
So I shut my eyes and breathe deep to slow down my breath
And we fall asleep

We both awake along with the sunrise
And I’ve had some time to cool down
So I start my car, where yours is still parked
And I make my way across town

A few months ago you told me you’d leave me
If I ever cheated, so that’s what I did
That’s what I did and that’s what you’re doing
And that’s what I did and that’s what you’re doing
And that’s what I did and that’s what you’re doing
I guess one of us should just leave

 
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